October 14th
3:27 AM
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(Tumblr needs to make these things rebloggable) I made this giant reply with my entire biography and thoughts about depression and stuff but nobody really cares about that, so here’s my two main points: The best thing about this is that this realisation is such a breakthrough when you have it, that you’re not just crap at dealing with life (not entirely), but that your brain is kind of unwilling to co-operate with you sometimes and it’s just a thing that happens and you’ve got to be patient with it and try and be okay. The whole ‘telling people’ thing is awkward for me because I have months of being okay and then periods where I’m not, so it’s often a very small part of my day to day life (and then suddenly it’s not, but whatever). So if I talk to someone and they say ‘are you doing okay?’ like I’m a mentally unstable person, it makes me realise that people don’t know what’s happening in my head, so because the world is binary ‘not-crazy/crazy’, there could be something wrong with me RIGHT NOW. Which is understandable. Obviously. I have no idea what anyone is feeling. But when you’ve been okay for a while and you’re not even thinking about it, it’s kind of crappy. Obviously it’s all out of love, but it’s still not a comfortable thing to talk about. Especially when you’re blindsided by it. Really, that’s the only downside to telling people, because they’ll always have this gnawing concern that you might not be okay, and they have no way of telling, so if they ask you questions, try and tell them. Or let them know that if you have a problem, you will tell them, so that will stop them asking you. But I wouldn’t have kept it a secret. It’s not something everyone needs to know, because it’s generally something I deal with by myself, but having a few people to talk to is very helpful. I think if you start going to doctors and stuff, telling family and close friends is definitely healthy. I mean, I tend to do this with most medical stuff, it just seems helpful to me. Obviously telling someone you have a problem is going to make them worried, but if you continue to talk to them throughout your treatment (both good and bad days), they’ll gain a greater understanding, just as you will, and it won’t seem as scary any more. Talking can be really uncomfortable but it’s worth doing.

(Tumblr needs to make these things rebloggable)

I made this giant reply with my entire biography and thoughts about depression and stuff but nobody really cares about that, so here’s my two main points:

The best thing about this is that this realisation is such a breakthrough when you have it, that you’re not just crap at dealing with life (not entirely), but that your brain is kind of unwilling to co-operate with you sometimes and it’s just a thing that happens and you’ve got to be patient with it and try and be okay.

The whole ‘telling people’ thing is awkward for me because I have months of being okay and then periods where I’m not, so it’s often a very small part of my day to day life (and then suddenly it’s not, but whatever).

So if I talk to someone and they say ‘are you doing okay?’ like I’m a mentally unstable person, it makes me realise that people don’t know what’s happening in my head, so because the world is binary ‘not-crazy/crazy’, there could be something wrong with me RIGHT NOW. Which is understandable. Obviously. I have no idea what anyone is feeling. But when you’ve been okay for a while and you’re not even thinking about it, it’s kind of crappy. Obviously it’s all out of love, but it’s still not a comfortable thing to talk about. Especially when you’re blindsided by it. Really, that’s the only downside to telling people, because they’ll always have this gnawing concern that you might not be okay, and they have no way of telling, so if they ask you questions, try and tell them. Or let them know that if you have a problem, you will tell them, so that will stop them asking you.

But I wouldn’t have kept it a secret. It’s not something everyone needs to know, because it’s generally something I deal with by myself, but having a few people to talk to is very helpful. I think if you start going to doctors and stuff, telling family and close friends is definitely healthy. I mean, I tend to do this with most medical stuff, it just seems helpful to me. Obviously telling someone you have a problem is going to make them worried, but if you continue to talk to them throughout your treatment (both good and bad days), they’ll gain a greater understanding, just as you will, and it won’t seem as scary any more. Talking can be really uncomfortable but it’s worth doing.

#in which i make long text posts at 3am      #depression      #anxiety      #mental health      #john green      #fishingboatproceeds      #vlogbrothers      #nerdfighteria      #idk how to tag man     
October 8th
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Ladies and gentlemen... I give you a photo tour of TFIOS.

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Wow, this tour of The Fault in Our Stars locations shows the real-life counterparts to pretty much every public space in the novel. 

(Obviously do not click if you haven’t read the book.)

This is pretty cool.

Although it’s evidence towards the theory that real places can never live up to what the reader imagines in their head (for instance, I always imagine churches as impossible romantic, with awesome lighting and cool architectural and gothic touches everywhere and an impressive echo, even though I know what churches look like and the church in these photos is perfectly in line with what churches look like). So a part of me is happy that I’m getting this feeling of inexplicable disappointment out of the way now, because I know that seeing the book become real won’t look like it would in my head whatever they do with it, so that if (or hopefully, when) TFIOS ever becomes a film then I can appreciate it as its own thing and not just ‘oh I imagined that differently… it wasn’t as cool as when I was reading it’, because of course it isn’t. Brains (and eyes and ears) are more powerful and more technologically advanced than cameras can ever hope to be.

#john green      #tfios      #the fault in our stars      #fishingboatproceeds      #nerdfighteria      #books      #films      #ignore the awkward grammar in this i just had a 12 hour day     
June 16th
7:03 PM
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i doNT UNDErstanDW hy pePLE ON tuMBLR TAlk like thIFLSLDKJFNSKD omGggg

#tumblr      #vlogbrothers      #nerdfighteria      #john green      #USE YOUR WORDS      #I didn't make this picture I found it      #I apologise      #but      #my point remains     
June 11th
11:18 PM
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John Green’s Legendary High School Prank

So what I’m gathering from this is that John Green was born awesome

#john green      #vlogbrothers     
5:47 PM
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I’m trying to decide what to do with my free time this week

I think I might have narrowed it down to

  1. Read The Fault In Our Stars
  2. Start watching Revenge (because my friend has just started and keeps telling me to)

Any recommendations?

#the fault in our stars      #john green      #revenge      #i'll probably end up doing both of these but the question is what do i do first     
May 13th
4:02 AM
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Help I’ve fallen in love with John Green and I can’t get up

#john green      #vlogbrothers      #nerdfighters      #i'm so late to this party      #currently going through their channel because i just bought another one of his books and followed him on twitter and stuff     
December 20th
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Books in 2012 → Will Grayson, Will Grayson by John Green and David Levithan

This book is totally unique in that there are two main characters that are written by two authors. Uppercase Will Grayson and lowercase will grayson. The idea of the book is that they both eventually meet due to crazy circumstances and it changes their lives. It’s kind of awesome. Both the Wills are really relatable, and their inner monologues are genius. I could quote you so many things right now, but I think my favourite line at the moment is ‘He’s what would happen after 9 months if Abercrombie fucked Fitch.’. The book really ends up being about Will’s friend Tiny Cooper though, who is big and gay and writes a musical about himself that turns out way better and not as cringeworthy as you’d expect. And it ends in this weird moment where everyone in the room stands up one by one and says ‘I appreciate you Tiny Cooper’ and it was kind of embarrassing and reminded me of the end of Mean Girls. But anyway, it’s kind of not entirely about him. The big themes in this story are about relationships and love. A number of the main characters are gay, but I don’t know whether I’d call it a ‘gay story’ like it was advertised as. That kind of seems like a small part of the book to me. The most powerful message of the book to me was the friendship between Tiny and Will, where they wonder whether you pick your friends or if you’re just stuck with them, and that you can love your friends (and I guess anyone) without it having anything to do with sex. So I guess I’ve come away from this book with a new way of thinking about people, and friends and relationships and all that stuff. But even without ‘learning something’, this book is so good. It’s really funny and clever and the characters are so awesome, even the ones you don’t like. Everyone should read it.

And I still don’t know what a nerdfighter is. I really need to look into this, it’s been like… years and I still haven’t looked this up. *lame*

#books in 2012      #will grayson will grayson      #john green      #david levithan      #books